Thank you for listening to my songs! This blog is my life story behind the music.
My latest single:
My Music is also right here!!!
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Music Videos on Vevo: https://www.youtube.com/@AmandaAmanVEVO
“Music is the culmination of my life experience put into the bravery of sound. I found something on the road of life that not only keeps me going, it made me fearless.”
May 20th, 2026:
Every since my brother died I feel like I have nothing left to lose. He never got to know me. I never got to share my passions with him. It was so senseless the way we lost him before he died. Partly, my attitude is revenge. I want the damn redemption story and since my brother is lost I want that woman who shall remain nameless and faceless to see me and my voice be accepted in the world.
I know I have people cheering me on from the other side…
April 23rd, 2026:
This blog is a shapeshifter. Now it contains the last 5 years, but first I shared my whole story. Well not quite everything, but enough to be something like 86 pages to describe my life.
I was shocked how many family, friends, and acquantances casually read the entirety of my life, shrugged, and moved on with their day. It really made me realize how solitary life really is. If my whole life is just a blimp of information, then should I hold onto it all? Should I share my spilled brain contents for people to hardly be entertained or interested in me at all anyways?”
April 22nd, 2026:
Today I found out my brother died. He was 10 years older than me. I have so many feelings right now and what to say about him. I feel so sad about his wasted potential. He never got the chance to reconcile with his family. For over 20 years he was in a relationship with a woman that isolated him from his family and friends.
February 9th, 2026:
It is five days before I release 2 more songs. They are totally different. One is Country; One is Rock. I am going through all the normal emotions and phases ranging from excitement to, “oh no what have I done.” Right now I am in the “nothing matters anyways” phase. There is a lot of cruelty and negativity out there and I hardly even tried to look today. Every day I get the chance to wake up again and wrestle with myself to overcome the adversity placed before me. I get to rewrite the words that play in my head.
Sometimes it helps to remind myself, “It is just a little life.”
Album Art for Free Pee
I made this album art from a video clip in the official music video. You wouldn't know it but the lens flair in the Free Pee Music Video was an effect created by looking through a blanket at the sun. I was at the beach and the sun was so bright I hide my face. Then I squinted and remembered loving to do that as a child to see all the pretty colors and shapes. I wondered if my iphone camera could catch the light I was seeing. It did!
Album Art for Etched In My Memory
This album art I created from a transition clip in the official music video. I did a lot of layering and playing with opacity, color, and effects in this video.
This song and video is special becaue I made them for my Mother. She loves the butterflies and footage of me flying a helicopter.
January 6th, 2026:
I feel lucky, grateful. I saw a shooting star the other night. Today I was awake in the fog that timbers the beyond. I’m almost done with 2 more songs and I could not be more happy with the outcome.
November 19th, 2025:
Does anyone else feel like they have lost a huge period of their life due to the pandemic? I feel like some of the best years of my life were stolen from me in regards to missed opportunities. A worldwide reset left a lot of us jolted in our life path. One thing is certain for me, without the calamity of the pandemic of 2020 I am not sure how much would have progressed for me. The time we spent unplugging from the work grind allowed me to discover the passion for music that was lurking under the surface.
I quit my last healthcare job last week. It was the most toxic workplace I have encountered to date. I’ve been spending my days sleeping in, attempting to recover from the stress of that terrible blood bank.
I finally unpacked my bass and have been playing guitar… there is at least one song in each guitar. My bass has a rock song in… it is an anthem, it is my anthem! It is a new way for me to create songs… finding a song within the guitar. I believe every guitar has at least one song in it. I am not sure if that makes sense to anyone but me.
November 1st, 2025:
It is amazing how quickly life can go by and what seemed to be important gets shuffled in the chaos.
Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of releasing my first single. While I am proud of how much I accomplished, I am frustrated by the level of distraction in my life. Music should be the number one thing I focus on, at the base of all my decisions.
I have put in notice at another job. I can’t help but fit this workplace into my dream of an offkilter place I definitely do not want to be at. I found it insufferable.
(CD I made when I was feeling overly ambitious. I do enjoy figuring out the artwork)
(Edited still image from Etched In My Memory Music video.)